It’s the very last day of the lunar year, and a time for me to reflect. A lot has passed and I have grown tremendously in the past year. I’ve shared my life with a partner and have known consistent love and acceptance. The product of our love may very well be born tomorrow, on the lunar new year… I’ve been learning to shift my reaction from “fight and resist” to “accept and make peace.” It’s always within me, when all is said and done.[...]

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Everyone taking advantage of the hysteria/panic/confusion to wrest more power from anyone else… why don’t I do it too? REMEMBER: the shift in consciousness is within me, not out there. My peace is mine, first and foremost. It’s been getting harder and harder to remember that, these days… God forbid I lose my comfort![...]

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Governments suck. For the most part it’s run by power hungry, ego-driven sociopaths. I get it. But we’re living in a certain world right now and we have to start where we’re at, which is why my anti-establishment friends get upset when I say I like Bernie Sanders. In this context, the conversation was exploring how all political elections are simply theater, no matter the candidate, he/she had to be ‘vetted’ to get that far in the game. Here’s my deleted[...]

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Last night I was laying in bed pondering the times when I realized that there was a reality outside trying to get in. That reality was the real-ity, which made me realize that I’d been choosing to exist in a different one for the last… week? Two weeks? It’s been a shit-show nightmare for those like me who have been paranoid about something like this for the last decade… and now that it’s arrived, I’m the one who has nothing prepared. I’m the one[...]

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A lot of my writing in recent years has come from innocent provocation in an e-mail, Reddit thread, or Telegram chat room. I write out a wall of text only to delete it, or un-send it, because of the context of the conversation. Here is one such segment. re: covid 19… I’ve seen evidence saying the same about the genetic engineering. I don’t disbelieve it, but I have also heard experts explain how it came from the Chinese eating bats sold in a certain marketplace with every[...]

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I’m writing again. A return to who I once was, before I decided to try to be a social entpreneur-ing filmmaker and dedicated my creative energy elsewhere. It’s been a long ride from age 26 until now, 32, but now that life is slowing down a bit I am happy to bring my mind to text once again. Welcome.[...]

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If there’s one thing I’ve learned, that I can do my best to apply to myself, so I can thus offer it to my son, it’s to bring him into a world of peace. An environment lacking the human chaos created by a father lost in the infinite swirls of being, teetering on the finite, remembering and forgetting, not proving much to material society in the process… Aquiles, you won’t be my reason for being, but perhaps you’ll be my being for reason. You will[...]

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(1/26) I’m suddenly so easily grateful… do these new moon intentions happen regardless of my conscious efort or motivation? it’s like I know where I want to go, who to be and the work is almost an unneeded step– BECAUSE I AM ALREADY THERE! (past the bullshit) (1/27) This sudden and strange gratitude… surrender… “love” for myself, the act of not stressing, #CHILLBRO, could it be a reflection of the strongest, purest love I’ve ever known?[...]

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forgiveness acceptance of acceptance receiving of love expressive in purity not judging its source I give and I receive I’ve given and I’ve received I give and I receive I create and I deserve I love and I cherish she just wants to loves me…. all my ego-ic & lustful fantasies disintegrated in the field of her love the “me” aspects of love in those fantasies stay with us. LOVE WILL BURN IT ALL UP… JUST LET IT.[...]

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